well the everything happening for a reason i totally agree. i mean, sometimes something happens and a whiole later something kind of related happens and you're like,"is that some kind of karma?"

but i don't see how that's anything beneficial. coz currently, i can practically see my life some years on. career-wise still a little uncertain. but my ultimate aim of getting married and settling down with kids seems unbelievably far away. it's not even a speck on the horizon. it's like practically invisible. i think i'm destined to become one of those old maids with 20 cats(and no offence to gladys and ger but i don't even like cats)

now i wonder why i even bother with this. but it's just that i'm grooving in that direction and it seems like a hopelessly sad sad situation.

anyway. about the sentosa outings and stuff. it's true that ultimately, we'll be moving off in different directions. and who knows what the future holds? but maybe coz i'm sitting about in shanghai, i'm feeling(a little embarassed to say) but yeah, i'm sort of left out. it's like i ahevn't the faintest idea what's going on. and gradually, i'll just become one of those "oh i remember her, she was in my class, but i forgot her name."
i'd very much love to join you peeps. or be clued in or something. but oh well.

but anyways kiwi., don't really matter what you're doing. so long as you're sure of yourself and you're good at it. i mean, if you're gonna be a road sweeper at least makes sure you're adept at sweeping roads right? i mean, maybe we dunno if that's the curse for us. but heck! we've already been given it. and we'd already chosen it earlier. so just 'ying zhe tou pi' and do it!

okay. enough said. cheerio!

Hmm...well ger, im heading to the kitchen for supper/the toilet to brush my teeth/to bed to sleep, but if you are talking about uni courses and stuff it's probably the faculty of science, unless i happen to change my mind next yr or the yr after next. Kinda depressing...but oh well...life sucks, but it still goes on! Here's something to share with everyone:

"Nothing is by chance. There is a perfect pattern and plan running through the whole life, and you're part of that wholeness and therefore part of that perfect pattern & plan. When you see strange things happening in your life and wonder why they should happen to you, take time to see how it all fits in, and you will see a reason for everything. The reason may not be always what you expected, but nevertheless be willing to accept them and to learn by them, and do not fight against them. Life should be effortless. A flower does not struggle to unfold in the rays of the sun, so why should you struggle to unfold in the rays of my limitless love?"
--Eileen Caddy, Spiritual guide and author

Ok the last line sounds quite weird...but nvm. The main point of this post is...it's been AGES since our last class outing! It's increasingly hard to organise outings and stuff...but i realise it's really going to be "seperate ways" for us if this goes on! Even the most convenient and favourite outing of all, our beloved sentosa outing was postponed 2 or 3 times? Why lidat...so your slacking sentosa i/c, me, shall propose a sentosa outing this coming sat or next wk maybe?Any takers?Keep the blog and tagboard alive! =)

hey ger.. to were the road may take me.

hey ger.. to were the road may take me.

dare i ask.. where's everyone headed...?

Hey! I chanced upon these two blogs that I found very interesting because there is a lot of frank discussion on Singapore policies etc. I think reading through them makes me reflect on the the policies that I have taken for granted or provides me with insights when I'm at times so bought over by govt propaganda that I fail to see the flaws within. And since my ability to express is rather inadequate, I'm quite impressed by the eloquence and clarity of thinking displayed by the bloggers. Haha! Tell me how you feel lar... =P

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type 6 is pretty amusing. but why am i not surprised? *ouch* i forsee loads of stuff being thrown at me.

read the previous few entries. i agree with huilin that it's not exactly glamorous to be publicising your sex life quite so blatantly. it's a face issue, for the school, the family etc. coz it really doesn't reflect too well on the upbringing etc.
but not that we're in any position to judge. coz it takes loads of guts to speak so openly.

i am rather surprised though that sex is quite so rampant in our society. i know our circle has been pretty sheltered. but seriously, i thought the pregnancy and STD rates should be higher if that's the case.
i shan't bother reflecting over what people will consider sacred. but i would say that anyone involved in such activities should be responsible enough to bear the consequences.
a schoolmate from my sec school has a kid now. and she's not even really caring for her kid. she's in JC now. and yet she still clubs. and apparently her parents are caring for the kid. i don't really give a damn what others' do in their bedrooms. but at any age, their should be some consideration for situtions that occur along the way.

the world out there, so-called, may not be the one which we were so used to. it may have many social problems etc. and sure, that needs adapting etc. maybe we were quite so used to studying. maybe it's so much easier to give in to our whims and fancies. maybe we should follow the crowd and indulge in whatever that our heart/hormones/whatever tells us to do.

seriously, all those is just but part of life. the major part of it revolves around other things.

i dunno if i quite got my point. or i'm just blabbering aimlessly. :P

was reading the previous posts about the world out there and i must say i totally agree with lileng that the world out there is not as beautiful as it seems to be. after i started working in starhub, i realised that many things that seems morally incorrect is in fact common in real life. and i think i am already somebody from our world who is not so sheltered and protected like some other people i know. 3/4s of my department smokes. sometimes it makes me feel as if not smoking is a sin. everyone's been saying smoking is bad for health, smoking causes lung cancer. but the truth is, does anyone really bother about it except people in our little world? i don't think so. the notion of 'no sex before marriage' and 'sex should be a sacred activity engaged by 2 people who are so deeply in love' seems ridiculous. i've met people who don't mind engaging in one night stands just for the thrill of it, and people our age who have had sexual intercourse before that i'm beginning to feel that keeping and maintaining your virginity isn't all that sacred anymore. i'm not trying to say that i don't value my virginity and that i will sleep around loosely but it's just that the world really isn't what we imagine or want it to be. to be innocent is to be regarded as stupid and gullible. to be elite is to be condemned because we are the ones who come up with stupid policies for the company.

it feels really weird because now it's like you're being told that it's okay to smoke, it's okay to have premarital sex and it's okay if you don't do so well in school. because in that way, you'd just be like everyone else. recently i began speaking more mandarin because everyone else in the working world speaks mandarin. i always thought the language of communication would be english because of the malays and the indians but apparently not. they speak mandarin, the malays and indians can understand and even speak mandarin. sounds kinda rude huh. talk about racial tolerance and racial harmony in a modern singapore society when it turns out that they have to accomodate to us instead. and i also found that at the age of 25 for guys and 22 for girls, a lot of people are actually already married with kids! omg. to think that we can even think about not getting married at all. i guess education levels and expectations are really proportional.

life's not as simple as it seems. i've learnt to keep my mouth shut and keep my mouth open. cus you don't know when or who might be good to you in front of you and badmouthing you behind. if we're lucky enough, we might end up in our own world again when we start work, that is if we're that zai. we may get to manage people of our kind - the elites. but if we're not, we may get to work with the rest. and until then, don't be surprised to learn that probably 70% of the people you know have had one or more sex experience.

heyhey! this is an interesting snippet that I saw in The Straits Times IN (this section that's provided to schools which order ST and that's targeted at sec sch kids). There's this article called 'Let's talk about sex' in yesterday's IN which basically was about how prevalent sex is among kids under 16. They interviewed this RJ girl (fm RGS) who actually said that sex was 'just something you do' and which is a 'progression from making out'. What I found interesting about this article was that those interviewed, especially from top schools, actually dared to give their names (well.. i'm assuming it's so since they didn't specify that those weren't their real names =p).

And here comes the bomb... they actually interviewed this other girl fm Hwa Chong (and yesh... she's fm our batch somemore...) called Jiawen who admitted about first having sex at 15 and subsequently with 3 other boyfriends and numerous other casual partners. I was quite shocked when I read this coz I have always had this idealistic view of HC... how HC ppl seem to be more innocent compared to those fm other schs in general... and coz I have only known of 1 person fm our batch of hwa chongians who had sex before and he is a guy. This just goes to show how sheltered and protected my life has been. I have been living in this pretty world of illusion constructed by schools in little bukit timah, unaware of the harsh realities of life. Probably those of you reading this wouldn't be as shocked as I am now (I am shocked partly also coz she's willing to say tt she's fm hc n divulge everything about her sex life.. which isn't exactly glamorous, you see?).

Perhaps it's time for me to grow up.