wahaha! I agree with ailin! =P think i've visited the class blog or blog so many entries (by my std lar! haha!) much more frequently in this span of a few months as compared to the whole of 2 years in jc. *sheepish* but sometimes quite sian when the blog stagnates... =( tt's why i particularly like reading the class blog after a guys-book-out! girls, must blog more wo!!

haiya.. my job is still boring.. but learning how to appreciate having the time to slack too.. dun be so zhi zhuo u see? for nearly every morning, i'll just go to work, collect letters fm chinese high, switch on my comp, indulge in my own check of personal e-mails, and ask around if anyone has any work for me to do... well.. well... but i'm liking the env more n more.. esp. gossipy students who come to the admin office and tell us stories... eg. how perverse some chs boys can be.. eeks.. wahaha! :)

so r u guys gg for class lunch b4 collecting results? I realised that there's a disparity in the girls' and guys' response to the BIG day tmr... girls generally dread tmr but guys are getting so excited abt it.. coz they can book out -__-" hais.... ever since the moe announced the date of the release, the teachers and principal at hcis have been asking me if i'm nervous abt tmr.. as if i need constant reminders that it's tmr lar.. urgh!!
take heart till then.. ppl, try to sleep tonight arh.. coz losing sleep over it aint gonna make any difference...

cheerios,
huilin
"i wanna burn our transcripts"

"Never Believe that a few Caring People cannot Change the World. For indeed, that's all who ever have."
- Margaret Mead

helloz one and all... i want to say that i truly truly love the class blog. it is my lifesaver in times of ultra boredom, like today.... i came back from lunch at about 2.... and was basically taskless from 3.15 to about 5.15.... when finally, mian qiang got some filing to do together with lileng.... so for that 2 hours of slacking, i started reading the classblog, all the old entries and reliving the memories of being a student and being sufficiently busy or crazily busy.

i love the classblog. boredom kills. i dun mind being crazily busy. 2 more minutes to 6 pm. hooray!

hello people.

i'm back to bug you all. first thing's first, i agree with kiwi! its so exciting that the A level results are finally going to be released, cause i can't wait to book out and go back to hc and meet my fabulous classmates! woo-hoo!
so yeah, can't wait! =P

next, diary-x crashed. so quite a number of people moved. including me.
i've updated the links on the class blog. so yeah. do go take a look people. (i'm so glad to have a working blog all over again. phew.)
to lileng: see. i did do some work as an administrator okay. haha. =P

thats all really.
seeya all on 1st march 06! woo-hoo!

(aren't i sadistic or what?)

hey huilin...theres no need to remove your post...do take care ya? For those who have lost a loved one, i'm sure you all know how depressing it is...like all of a sudden, someone whom you're so "used to" having around is just not there anymore, especially on special occasions like cny, family gatherings and all...it just doesn't feel the same isn't it? Bad memories just haunt you when you least expect it, making you recall the scenes where she just felt so weak and on the brink of death...it's even more heartwrenching when you know that it's only a matter of time before she leaves us, and yet she still tries so hard to look at you, as though reassuring you that she's alright...but i guess, life just goes on. Perhaps we can only take comfort in knowing that she's not suffering anymore?

On to something more light-hearted...the results would finally be released on wed!! Aren't you all excited? Haha...besides getting the results which we all deserve for all the mugging, we can all get together as a class again!Feels good to be finally going to sch again...(BMTC sch 1 is a totally different thing...haha) Shall we have lunch together at say, curry wok or sthg? Then maybe we can hang out after getting our results from auggy! Wonder what look he'll give us...haha...hope he doesn't shake his head and give that "sinister" smile...

Sentosa yesterday was quite fun! Though it came down to only 7 people...haha just like the first time we went there. Could have been better if more pple could make it...maybe we can have another 1 soon? Since the last time we went (30th nov), so many things have changed! (we ate sakae and ben & jerry's too instead of bk/delifrance...haha) All the construction and renovations are almost done...and everything looks so nice and relaxing! Oh but we didn't manage to play in the courts much...too crowded liao but hey we hit a new max of 118! Not bad liao lah...considering we so long nv play...but in the evening, we struggled to hit 71...haha so eventually we gave up when it got so dark that we can't even see the ball clearly...Anyway, i was like the latest to arrive...haiz...i will be the earliest next time!! =P

Mao would be trying to organise a chalet or sthg some time when the guys finally pass out (8th march is coming soon!) so hopefully it'll materialise...till then, c ya'all on wed? GOOD LUCK pple! 71 kebaba! =)

Heys.. Thanks to everyone who asked after me... particularly suan n shar... really appreciate it a lot for being there for me...
n yar... i'm ok so far... quite amazing.. coz i used to visualise the day when i'm finally gonna lose her and each time i did that, i ended up crying... n i always wondered how ppl who lost their loved ones actually carry on.. n now i realise tt one simply doesn't get over it.. it's not like as time passes, the significance of the person fades out fm ur life... to me, it's abt moving on and dealing wif that fact... i dunno.. perhaps i've been suppressing myself.. i just dun like thinking abt her when i'm on to my daily routine.. which is why i always left quickly when my uncles talk abt her... maybe i'm cold-blooded har? n then i realized tt i'll just end up tearing at the most inappropriate time.. like when everyone else is done wif crying... so dumb...
watching i not stupid too reminds me of how selfish n how little i've done for her.. just coz somehow, i still assumed that she would be there for a long time n how i just wanted to adapt that new situation into my life n get on with it... i suck... it seemed like i was the only one in my family who truly believed tt the alternative treatment was gg to make her well... tt she'll live up to her promise of bringing me n my bro to eat crabs like the good old days... to tink tt i was actually quite proud of her when she said it coz it's one of the few times tt she's optimistic...
the day b4 she left, she lost control of her bowels.. yet, i didn't even see her or talk to her much coz i tot it's just food poisoning n she gonna recover fm it.. n the first thing i know when i woke up the next morning was tt my uncles were trying to wake her up and some were alr crying. she was alr in coma... i was scared but i was trying to psycho myself into thinking tt all will be fine.. which is why i resisted tt panic attack... tt morning, i din wear my specs coz i couldn't bear looking at everything ard me and her wif such clarity.. seeing things in focus seemed to make it more final and more of a reality... i wanted to escape...
sorry... i know this is a depressing post... if u tink it's disturbing, pls tell me to remove it... meanwhile, all of ya take care arh...

Howdy people,
Guess u all noe that the budget has been released and its choked full with goodies. Thats great and all but its only to do with the economic side of things. What then are the security prospects for Singapore you may wonder... is it safe to get married, is it safe to have kids? Well... have no fear for i have obtained classified information of the security forecast for fiscal year 06-07.

• Singapore will be peaceful for the next 2 years... for I will be serving NS
• If you happen to take a walk down Orchard road, bypass Mandarin to Centerpoint, to have a cup of lemon-lime at McDonalds, terrorists will not attack... for I will be protecting the country
• When you turn on your tap, fresh Malaysian water would continue to flow out... for if it dosen't, my rifle and my buddy and me would be having tea with Uncle Badawi

Anyway, enough of my irrelevant musings. That was actually a pittiful foray into humouristic journalism epitomised by my idol Edwin Yeo of TNP. Yup... As should be coming out soon, I guess i've already come to terms with watever results i'll get. Whats been done is done and cannot be undone so well... no regrets as Mao likes to say. Point is... its good to plan ahead and all but sometimes you jus hav to be receptive of whatever happens and change accordingly. If life went according to plan, it would be pretty boring too wouldn't it. I was jus looking through the NUS courses and was amazed by the plethora of choices so keep your options open folks.

Can we start setting a date for Sentosa and stuff... preferably after the 7-8th so that we can thrash out a date amongst all the conflicting shedules and the guys can plan their overseas vacation or watever. We hav exactly 2 wks of block leave...shiok sia.

Thats it...cherrios ppl n POP loh

Anthon

Okay... i am having doubts about whether i should be blogging this entry here, especially if its directly after two particularly depressing ones.... But i'm sorry people, diary-x had some massive server breakdown, and until it recovers or i move to blogspot, i have no other place to blog...

(and not blogging is NOT an option: i have too much stuff built up inside of me to NOT spill up)

so yeah.
first things first: my condolences to ger and huilin for erm, all your personal bereavements and stuff. honestly, its kinda sucky to come back and read about such stuff happening to your friends, and worse thing is, you didn't know about it, cause tekong is so damn bloody isolated and stuck in its own psychotic little own stuck up world, shut out from civilisation and intelligence. so yeah, i feel kinda bad not knowing until like now... makes me feel like a very very bad friend. once again, my condolences, and please stay strong okay? always look on the bright side of life!

to xy:
hope you are having fun in shanghai! i may be going there for a break during my block leave... but that's all unconfirmed lah. we'll see, and hope to meet up if i go there yah?

on to about life in the army for the past two weeks:
i think last two weeks were the mostly mentally, physically and psychologically exhuasting weeks on my life. even the Os' and the As' weren't that tiring. Jaguar Coy has the worst schedule in the whole of BMT1. it's incredibly packed.

anyway i had range, field camp and grenade throwing all packed together in two weeks.
live range was quite fun. except i missed marksmanship by one shot. was kinda sad lah, but i can't shoot standing up for nuts... so yeah. too bad.

field camp was... i dunno, definitely an experience. anthon's entry listed all the bad bad stuff about field camp... some of which i experienced, some of which i didn't feel too bad about. i didn't have too much problems sleeping outfield or encountering insects (mine was relatively bug free) or putting camo (my coy's quite slack in camo putting and maintenance).
only thing that i couldn't stand was the massive tekan sessions on day 4 and day 6 respectively, where the whole coy was made to run 3 rounds around our campsite with our rifles overhead, leopard crawl around our campsite, do a pitch/unpitch parade (which was totally irritating) and yes, do push up with those massive field packs on (ARRRGHHHHH)
other than that, field camp was quite memorable. albeit tiring. some memories that stuck out include marching through a thunderstorm, having an evacuation from our campsite which turned into a mud pool on day2, digging a shit hole on day4 and oh yeah, having a movie screening ('Brotherhood') on day 5.
other than that, i had quite an okay time. running around doing stupid drills (arti! arti! arti!), snacking with my buddy everynight (the biscuit rations are DELICIOUS) and yeah, hugging my rifle every single night.

grenade throwing wasn't that nice though. simply because i was one of three people who threw a blind. now for the uninitiated, a blind is simple an activated grenade that doesn't explode when thrown. it was quite ironic that i threw a blind, cause the very thing i told my PC that i was scared about when i entered the throwing bay was THROWING a blind. and my PC actually asked me how to prevent throwing a blind, to which i prompty gave him the right answer (to throw it high up).
but alas, luck wasn't on my side and my grenade was thrown too low. which was kinda sucky, cause the whole coy had to wait for like 10 to 15 mins for the explosion experts to clear it. and i had to entertain my pc by singing yanzi songs under the hot sun. and he kept going 'damian! damian! why must it be you! damian!' to which i kept replying 'i dunno why sir. i'm sorry sir. i didn't mean for it to happen sir.' and then, to make things worse, my PC kept shouting to the rest of the officers that my name is Damian, just because my OC's name is Damien. and my OC basically asked to see me to ask me why i threw a blind (to which i gave a lame answer 'i threw it too low sir') after the whole fiasco. so yeah. i felt like damn malu. i'm now known as 'blind boy' in my platoon. how sad.

i hate the fact that diary-x is down. bleah. i feel like moving to blogspot. but i don't have time to move my stuff there.
hopefully diary-x will be up by the next book out.

anyway, hope you all are hyped out about results day! i can't wait for it! =P honestly!
not so much getting results.... just for the book out! hehe.

enough talk here. hope you all are doing fine...
i'm off to do somemore civilian stuff. two weeks of army life is like how deprived a life.

two and a half more weeks to passing out! woo-hoo!

cheers people!

this is a mood killing post.

if you have a grandma whom you love dearly, go give her a great big hug before circumstances change and you cant anymore.

i'm not cursing anyone here, just stating a fact. for the last few days, looking at my grandma on the hospital bed, i got the urge to hug her but i couldnt, with the iv plug and the various pads and wires and tubes all monitoring her condition and keeping her alive.

and now i never can.

and to drive home the point that you'd never know what life has in store for you at th next bend, one only has to look at the death certificate. 1 month. 1 month was all it took after the discovery of cancer for it to kill her. obviously it didnt appear overnight, but we never knew that it was there until it was too late. no symptoms, nothing, no indication that there was anything wrong, until it was too late.

i suppose what makes it extra bitter was the fact that i/we always thought she would live past 80 and actually see me get married and maybe have kids, given her clean bill of health. seriously my relatives even did some calculations and told me i better get married by 25 (-_-") coz that's a realistically comfortable age for my grandma to live to. and she recently had a knee replacement which removed the pain in walking and was gleeful at the prospect of being able to walk around with ease again.

i think i've said enough. ah well, remember, go hug your grandma if you love her very very very much.

hello!!

my nose is running for i don't know what reason. i'm actually enjoying blogging at the class blog and reading the class blog coz it's beginning to show proper snippets of our lives.

anyways, thanks for last night(tonight in my terms since i'm awake). i had fun talking and eating(i polished like 8 chicken wings, don't want to think about it). and even walking to 7-eleven. i think they should come up with some travelator system..

yeah, gonna miss you people. the girls i'll prolly see seeing that i'm gonna spend another all girls' valentines'. to the guys, keep at whatever you're doing! be it drills, or hiding behind trees or digging holes in the ground!! and to all the pretty babes, test your brains with your jobs!

:)

Hey guys! I'm here to rejuvenate the blog...haha hope the blog doesn't realli die out!! Everyone seems to be blogging?! Maybe it's cos i haven't logged in for ages due to field camp so it seems like alot to me...haha. (think im too lazy to blog about field camp so the rest of the guys...add on to anthon's post if you wish...hahah)

Yupz it's great to see you all again at ecp! Though the attendance not exactly very good...but it was still nice to just sit down by the bbq pit and just talk to each other etc...gives me a kind of heartwarming...cozy kind of feeling =P Really appreciate times spent with you guys on occasions like these...(especially when you're so used to being 'feng fu' and poof!you get a yin cha yang cuo kind of feeling in tekong) Suddenly felt nostalgic and remembered the 'first class outing' to ecp...the one where we played by the beach,cycled and went to play pool late in the night?Ahh!! I'm starting to miss everyone and the times in hc again! =(

Must organise frequent outings k...hope we'll have a sentosa outing some time soon...if not once uni starts then everyone will be even busier with some leaving for overseas studies as well...though i know it's a bit hard when the guys can only book out during the weekends and the rest are buzy with work and stuff...so thanx alot organisers! =)

Last but not least...to xiaoyan...do blog about your life in shanghai!Do take care and hope to cya in...half a year's time!

err... since i haven't been too consistent with the newspapers. anyway just for those who wanna know when the A's will be out. it's not next week. not Feb 17.
i went and called the MOE hotline to check coz i might have needed to reschedule my flight. anyway. it's supposed to be late feb or early march.

cheerio!!
and i see hat the blog has keeled over and died again. :)

hello.

here are some updates on xy's farewell. okay fine. it's not exactly farewell for good, but since xy's going for a good 6 months and she wouldn't be coming for outings nor easily contactable for the next 6 months, i guess it's some kinda farewell isn't it?

if you guys don't have any violent objections, the farewell will be held at east coast park on 11th feb. we'll be having a bbq. don't worry about the food because gilyn and i will make the necessary arrangements and make sure that you guys are well fed. of course, nothing comes free in this world. so be prepared to fork out money. :) do try to turn up because it is a xy's farewell cum class gathering for those who missed the reunion lunch that day cum a good break for the guys after their field camp. after we have confirmed everything, we'll msg you guys the details, where to meet at what time and yadayada. i know it's kinda far for some of you. most of you in fact. but please please try to come!

meanwhile, take care people. lileng! i wanna play badminton! but i'm quite busy recently. if i'm not working i'm driving. that's all my life is about currently. i hope i get to start work proper soon. i'm going to be bored to tears. or maybe after i did, i would wish i hadn't!

someone organise sentosa please! i'm turning so fair i'm disgusted with myself. eeks.

heyhey! happy cny!!! hope all of ya had a wonderful cny! sorry.. couldn't make it for class reunion.. coz no one else was at home then... long story... so those who went, pls update us =)
anyway, it seems like our class is quite a hardworking class since some of us here find slacking at work boring... yar... here i am lamenting about the lack of work tt i get... =S anyway, i took a day off today.. since hc intl sch having hol but non-academic staff have to go back... but i figured it's too painful to pass another day of not doing anything so went to the principal to ask for leave... actually, i figured tt the sch is wasting money on me.. ookie.. think the pay is really good, esp considering the amount of work i get done (can finish counting on 1 hand)... so.. some kindhearted soul pls wake me up so tt i can start appreciating how lucky i am to be able to land this slack but relatively well-paying job... oh yar.. tt day, this other colleague was wondering out loud whether i'm on planet earth coz i was asking for work everywhere... =S oh! but tt sch quite spontaneous.. aft cny celebrations, some students din wanna go home, so a few of us ended playing badminton wif them! wahaha!
well.. for this new year, may all the girls enjoy their work n xiaoyan, ur studies (pls cook for us when u come back kie!) n may all the guys enjoy the mosquitoes n whatever other species of insects there are inside (consider it a kind deed tt u r feeding them ba!)! =P

my guess says hat i'm on the downward slope of blogging. but i must not jinx anything. the blog was so flooded with entries it took some time perusing them all!!
i'm amazed. it must have been anthon's first entry with a refreshing take on things!
anyway..sometimes i actually think that the guys almost feel like they're in some resort or haven of sorts away from reality.

chinese new year was chinese new year. it got off to a flat start but slowly warmed up. i don't suppose the food really tempts me that much anymore. but occasionally you do meet up with people and have a roaring good time!!

replying to damian's question. NO i am not migrating. i am embarking on a semester programme studying chinese language and culture at jiaotong university in shanghai. it's with he international studies division i believe. and they're offering module pertaining to traditional chinese cooking. pretty excited. i've been bumming around for some time now since no job wiuld have accpted me for so few weeks and accomdated my irregular activities at the same time. in any case you guys will prolly be seeing me in july..

see ya around and have a merry chinese new year!!

hihi...surprised... at work now... wif lileng staring at the comp behind me... not everybody in the office is here now... therefore, we got nothing to do now :) .... i hope this doesn't last the entire day... i will be bored to death... lileng laughs too...hahaha....

hmmm how was my chinese new year... i spent chu yi playing mahjong from 2 pm till 12.30 am.... chu er was spent at my uncle's house and wif the oac mates.... it was supposed to be a potluck dinner.... so guai me brought chicken wings... but when i reached there... i realised that i got cheated.... they ordered pizza... so anywayz that was chu er.... chu san was class lunch... quite sad...that the attendance was :( hmmm and afternoon i went out wif my councilmates....

so sleepy... i dun wanna work....