well... yisheng's idea of gong huan nan is good (in fact, i strongly propose tt we go work for a few mths.. then we go for ocip instead of bi ye lu xing to some place where we only shop n eat n play... more meaningful rite? but then e guys will be in ns lar.. n prob some ppl will be in overseas uni... or maybe we reverse the order or sth lar.. watever..)... n it will really mean tt we will really gong huan nan in that few days.. but to those who have gone to obs or training camps, bet u have all known tt during the camps or the immediate days after camps, u feel this strong sense of camaderie, a strong bond with everyone else coz of the common experiences (right, yuen mei?) ... but ultimately, this induced sense of bonding is transient... it fades off and eventually, ppl are like strangers again...
somehow, i tink the reason y we feel tt we can't gong huan nan wif one another goes beyond the mere absence of common hardships... it gonna be sth tt goes deeper.. is it coz we are afraid to expose ourselves, our vulnerabilities, our raw emotions, pains, to one another, esp since the length of the friendships that we have forged among ourselves is ultimately shorter than those wif we have wif our sec sch mates etc? perhaps we r not willing to take our chances wif one another... kinda shows the lack of trust tt we have in one another ba...
actually, i dun tink tt toking abt such stuff deng yu mei jiang coz even if we continue liddat... at least, we acknowledge the probl n we know tt there are others who feel the same way.. kinda tink tt's a step forward le.. dunno lar.. let's have faith in ourselves.. we still have a long way to go n who knows what may change in the future? meanwhile, let's enjoy the mugging together process n currently, the slacking together process.. =) well... tink a lot of u will disagree wif my xiang fa.. but it's just my take on the issue ba..

heyy. i wanna say. yes, i think our class isn't very close. i suppose there are certain friendships that will stand a longer period of time given a certain split. and it's true that we won't react in the same way as the junior class.
as a 2nd intaker myself, i think my old class really got the worst of it. we never had a blog to post, we never talked about how we would miss each other or how it will hurt so much. we were happy and having fun and thinking that it'll always be that way. we didn't always go out, but we did spend a lot of time just interacting and talking. guys and girls both. so i guess that's where we got to bond. you know, like it didn't occur to us that something was gonna hurt. so we never expressed our feelings about what was to come. it only hit home after we left. then everything came crashing and we figured that we had a huge problem there.
i bet you people must wonder how it must be awful to have so many juniors leave. the truth is, my old class doesn't even exist anymore. in the original class, there are just 2 people. 4 changed combination, 11 transferred to lower-ranked schools, 2 to better. reamining 7 got relocated to another class. that's a lot worse. there isn't even a class anymore. and hell, you live with it.
there isn't some long-lasting relationship. coz we tried to keep it working but within 3-6 months we lost everything. it's pretty gross. you just feel like there's this blank space where your class used to be and it can't be filled. it makes everyday real torturous. speaking now, sounds really weird. we can't replicate what we felt then, just that i remember it was horrible. 2nd term was the most disgusting time ever. i don't remember what it was except that i spent a lot of time not being present mentally and emotionally in school. it should kill you but it doesn't.
and looking back, i wasted a great lot of time. yihan can vouch too. i know it's only too easy to think 'oh how sad that they have to go'. but if you give a moment to think, what about those who have to come? whether by personal choice, truth is, they never saw HC first 3 months. they only know their own JC's first 3 months. and me too. we had a bad time. when you get easily attached, like when you let down your guard and get to know others, then it's harder to detach yourself. so we spent a lot of time, detaching ourselves. i know some people are seeing blanks here.
the reason why friends are close, i don't really know. 'wu da wu zhuang' and 'yin cuo yang cha' i think. like a same boat thing, which evolved into something more.

this all sounds very mechanical. i'll just say, it was very difficult times. and if i learnt anything, there isn't any eternal relationship. there's only keeping it very much alive while it lasts. and when it's time to let go, do. it's only making it worse. if the junior class reads this, it's not meant to be offensive. it's just what some of us have been through.
good news is, you don't die.

cheers people! block tests are over!

haha...well yisheng's gong huan nan idea sounds fun...huan nan jian zhen qing mah hor...but until then i'm sure if there's really a need, we'll support each other or sthg instead of pang seh-ing someone to die...haha (hopefully?)

yay i'm veri happy today!happy...sha lalala...=D BLOCK TEST IS FINALLY OVER!!! i'm sure everyone shares my joy too...haha finally some breathing space for us...but aniwae, glad to see that our blog is finally starting to get active again,so i'm here to do my part n blog...haha blog more pple!let's try to have regular posts k...haha

yupz, that shall be all from mi...haha abit short but nvm...i'm quite wu liao now...oh btw, the video yisheng posted is very disturbing...=( who's still wearing fur huh?!

hahaha, maybe we should like go OBS together to gong4 huan4 nan4. or go to an overseas cip trip after our As. =P

bio's going to be over soon! sheesh, i've also been procrastinating quite a lot. slacked two days le. finally started today =P ooh, i watched howl's moving castle today during my "breaktime". nice! :D then i keep reading storybook also, supposedly my "breaktime" but ended up finishing like 3/4 of it. go read "the curious incident of the dog in the night-time". it's about this autistic boy named christopher. eccentric but heartwarming. easy read too, for people like me. =X

yarp yarp. shall go tuck into bed liaos. jia you for bio peeps.

came across this on the net:

-junjia-

Yay i'm seeing the post before bio block test!haha...ok that sounds quite wu liao. But anyway,i'm going to copy n paste what i'm typing now in case they dissapear for no reason again...haha

Finally we can take a short little break from all the mugging for block test...mugging SUX!so horrible...i just want to rot and sleep right now...haha but still have to start mugging for bio soon...haiz!Let's all jiayou ba...it will all be over soon...haha but then again,after bio there'll be the stack of tutorials waiting for us...but nvm for now...haha

Feel quite sad for the junior class...so many of them couldn't get to stay...went to read jnr class's blog too, and jiaming's post was especially depressing!the part where she's forced to move out of hostel asap...then must pack luggage...aiyohz...ouch.

But aniwae,on a lighter note...shall we all go out on tuesday?Celebrate the end of block tests...haha...any ideas pple? =D

y0! realize tt i decided to type some words here instead of tagging? haha.. shall do my part to add stuff to this semi-dead-n-at-times -quite-alive blog.. (though it means reading watever crap tt i gonna put up..) yupz.. it's the day of chem block.. n nope.. i'm not gonna talk abt chem blk lar... sian diao... tt's y i'm here blogging this crap instead of studying.. :S
oh yar! i just read the jnr class blog.. n coz i nv visit their blog for v long le... was quite overwhelmed to read all tt emotional stuff at one shot lor... if there's the right ambience, tink can even cry ba... esp wat kq wrote... it's so full of her inner thoughts n pain... oh well...
haiz.. i ran out of things to say liao... everyone mug hard for bio ba... it's the last paper... though i tink most ppl will see this post only after bio block which actually defeats the purpose of typing tt 'mug hard' line.. arh.. watever.. .can see tt i'm really really crappy now... X)

hehe pple pls blog. dun let the blog dieeeeeeee

anyway i thought huangcheng was quite good. especially liked the 2nd one. 1st one also. v nai ren xun wei. nicenice.

eh my chinese still working. =D hope i used that phrase correctly.

(i realise my sentence structure is a bit weirded. hehe.)

and i still regret not joining huangcheng in j1. =( blah.

-------

eh damian create a template that's uniquely ours lah... hahaha use photos or wad... yepppp

cya all tmr. sad. hahaha

heh people!!!!

wanna thank you all for coming down to watch Huang Cheng on 17th and 19th!
thanks so so much!
hoped you all enjoyed the show... 3 months of endless hard work... hoped it lived up to expectations and all... =)

really happy that you all came early... ahaha and that my group didn't have to lock you all outside... =P
(was so worried that the whole bunch of you all would be late and refused entry by my own juniors... ahaha)
also really lucky that i happened to be stationed at the places where you guys were supposed to be sitting on both days (stall on 17th and circle on 19th)
and thank you so much for the flowers, snacks and that cheer! =D

now that Huang Cheng is over, no more excuse to not change the blog design liao...
look for one long overdue new design to replace the current design... soon. (make that after block tests. =P)

hoped you all have been revising well for blocks... ( I know I haven't... AAAHHHHH!!!! =O)
jiayou! and seeya tomorrow then... =)

Thanks once again...
Damian

yay. i m here 2 blog. as i promised (: newae went to watch capriccio 2dae to support suan. n d band concert was nice. haha. 1st time i nv fall aslp at this kinda concerts. so well done. hahs. newae i loved d phantom piece. yup yup (: oh n cos she doesnt like flowers we bot her like carrots. lemons. brocolli.n sum wierd vege which i dunno is wad. haha. newae we went coffee bean after dat n me n wong wai keong came up wid this pact : (i m too lazy 2 upload it now so i shall juz type it out)

12.03.2005. 10.35pm. coffeebean at sixth avenue. wong wai keong n gilyn cheah made a pact that he will get married by 25. he insists that he wants to show her his blissful look. she will be single and desperate. we look forward to that day.

witnessed by junjia. lileng. geraldine. damian. khengwee. alex.

yup. all of us r quite sure he wunt b married by den. bud hmm since he insists. gd 4 him.

this is damn saddening... after i post something pple must post also okie...

(wonders if i'm the only one posting coz everyone else is mugging = me slacker. oops.)

anyway i'm here to help pa/ava do some advertising: anyone wants to watch talent time? if music happens to be your cup of tea (as in vocal music, rap?) then come and listen. hahaha its this sat. yepp. and gladys alex and i taking part in the open cat. as part of co... not v appealing stuff to most pple but erm, if u feel like u got money and time to spare come down and support also okie? :D

yay.

oh. and hc130 rox. rox rox. =P

and who says we not bonded lah... even though i forever like not part of the general group i also still love 04s71 okie... hmph. unconditional love. must be touched okie pple... i love all of you!!!!!!!!!!! the feeling when we talk crap is v nice =D even though now my time management is damn bad, i'm sinking under undone tutorials and sucky results and stress related to cca i still love coming to sch =D

okie lah i talk crap enuff le.. damn tired... niteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

yup. ger u want 2 blog rite. lol. now dat i blog n can blog too. heh. i m doing my part 2 save our dying cls blog. newae read our jnr's blog. bahhh. dey reallie bonded man. (i'm jealous.) newae i theenk dats wad made it more sad la. now dat dey got their results. bahhh. hope that yup miracles happen. n i'm happie fer them fer making such nice fwens (: